It comes as no surprise my trade secrets were given to Intergraph.

First of all, let me make this clear.  I don’t give a care about the American Judicial “code of silence” that lawyers extend to judges because they’re afraid the judge will wreck their career.  I am not a lawyer that has to go before a judge and fear I will lose my career if I speak out against the judge.  Judges are appointed to uphold the laws, and anything else should cause them to be removed.

Any intimidation they impose on a lawyer should also cause them to be removed.  Lawyers should be able to present their cases before a judge without fear of losing their license if they upset the judge.  That’s part of litigation.  Parties are going to be upset.  That’s the way it is.  Judges will be upset.  Lawyers will be upset.  Plaintiffs, Defendants and witnesses will be upset.  Why should lawyers have to flirt with judges in order to keep their jobs, or to get favors from the judges?

I do not ever intend to become a lawyer, but if I did, I would risk my career to speak the truth.  That is, I would stand boldly before a judge and challenge their wrongdoing even if it got me kicked out of the BAR.  Therefore, why waste my money on law school to get into the BAR when I wouldn’t last long as a lawyer?

I see the BAR as a legal monopoly and a club for those who belong to it.

I was willing to lose millions of dollars in contracts just to stand for truth, so what makes a judge think I won’t risk a career as a lawyer to stand for truth?

If my speaking out is going to hurt my case and a judge decides to rule against me to make a point because I speak out on my blog, well, that’s only going to fuel me speaking out more and I will appeal until I’m blue in the face.  If more Americans would speak out, we wouldn’t have judges overruling what “we the people” vote for on election days.  But because we remain passive, our judges are making things up from the benches, and what we vote for in the polls means nothing to them.

I care about “we the people” and as far as I can tell, in America, we still have a voice and we still can write about our stories.  Until a “gag order” is put on my experience in the judicial system, I fully intend to speak out.  If it comes to that, then SLAPP will be next.  If SLAPP fails then apparently, we have no Constitution.

I’m only voicing things that are already public and that I can back with written documents.  Case in point, what the judge told me and how he handed over my trade secrets is in writing.  And what did one of the lawyers say after I challenged this?  “If I’m wrong, I’m wrong.”  He was referring to me challenging them having access to the trade secrets and not knowing what was proprietary on the CD ROM.  He said he will make his own decision on what Intergraph can use, and “If I’m wrong, I’m wrong.”

Justice is being hindered for certain small businesses at Robins Air Force Base.  Intergraph was put in place by the government, for the government, in place of the government, and without a government person present when negotiating a contract with me.

Why is this okay?  Why is the media silent?  Why are the courts assisting Intergraph?

This happened during the 2003- 2005 BRAC session, where the media (The Macon Telegraph and 13WMAZ) blocked my story from being told because of BRAC.  In fact, one of the reporters from 13WMAZ called me on my cell phone claiming she wanted to report my story.  She immediately defended Intergraph (they have a spokesperson for BRAC issues on 13WMAZ) She didn’t report my story.  She now works for the defendants and her picture is side by side with the Intergraph spokesperson.

Now we have started BRAC all over again, which is coming up in 2012.  The same people are still in place at Robins AFB and the media that can destroy any justice for those of us who are seeking it.

They have the political clout and money to shut the mouths of the contractors at the base.  They threaten to take away contracts.  Well, that won’t work with me.  I’ve already lost everything.  The only thing they have left to take from me is my life, and if it’s that important to them to shut me up, then my blood will be on their heads.   I am not afraid to stand for justice, nor seek it.

I’m sick of the judicial secrecy and “flirting” between lawyers and judges.  I’m sick of the words spoken that I’m not allowed to have evidence.  Evidence that JAG knows will help my case if I’m allowed to have it.

Why would a judge tell me he won’t allow me to clean up Robins Air Force Base?  Could it be part of that political involvement has to do with BRAC?  Then right in front of me, the lawyers and the judge exchange my trade secrets, as if it’s nothing to them.

Can a complaint be filed against a judge (such as through the BAR), and can I subpoena records of a judge’s political involvement?  What would the statute of limitations be on the judge handing over my discovery information for the financial gain of the defendants?

I’m making this a new mission.  I want access to the judge’s political records and now my mission is to find out what rules a judge follows, and what their political connections are.  When due process is denied and the specific denial given to me has to do with Robins Air Force Base, something is wrong.

Goals for this mission:

1. Find out what rules judges have to obey.  I also want to find out how District Court judges get their jobs, and whether or not they receive support from special interest groups, businesses, lawyers or others who may have an interest in the outcome of cases.  This also applies to a Superior Court judge who refused to allow me access to evidence I requested, and said the state court didn’t have the authority to order the government to turn over evidence.  Which, in my humble pro se opinion, should not have resulted in summary judgments to the defendants, but rather, a dismissal of my case for lack of jurisdiction.  That would have allowed me to add the causes of actions and defendants to my District Court case instead.

2. Find out what rules the judge disobeyed.

3. Find out what records I’m allowed to have (political involvement, complaints by other parties such as biased decisions, who donated to the judge’s campaigns or other causes, etc.)

4. Find out how to get the records

5. Get the records

6. Get justice

Why am I publishing my legal strategy?  Because it’s no secret what happened in the District Court, which is public information.  It’s no secret one of the judges is heavily involved in politics. And because I’m sick of the way the political BRAC crap is denying small businesses a chance at contracts and a chance at justice.

When a judge tells me he won’t allow me to clean up Robins Air Force Base, it makes me wonder why he supports the corruption.

And because BRAC is coming up again and I’m not going to let this get buried.  It’s an election year in America.  None of the candidates care about the small businesses.  Why should they?  Their PAC money comes from large corporations at Robins AFB and those teamed with the prime contractors, because they have been brainwashed into thinking that justice and contract favoritism is something you have to buy.

I will pursue due process to the end of this journey and I’m not going to offer anyone campaign money to get it.  I won’t pay for justice.  I expect it.

As of today, 22 JUL 08 This is a handy, dandy gadget to track my net worth. Oh boy! It’s time for the happy dance because now I can see in front of my face how rich I must be.

 

The cash on hand included in my portfolio includes the $30 I received in donations for the transcript (thank you!)

View my NetworthIQ (I don’t allow the script to run in my blog or I would paste it here, but since this is a networking, multi-user blog, I’ve disabled some features.

Am I feeling the financial burden yet? Let’s see:

1. Lost my home on Lite-N-Tie in Gray, Georgia. With that went my offices, 13 acres (with a nice 2 acre pond)

2. Lost my Robins AFB contracts

3. Refused $50,000 bribe (I’ll bet that would have paid for a lot of Ramen Noodles!!…I’m learning to like Ramen Noodles)

4. Refused the “how much will it cost to make your lawsuit go away” bribe by a Robins AFB employee. Good gracious! If only I was corrupted, I would be rich.

5. Refused the “handsome reward” on a $40 million contract if I would drop my GAO protest.

6. Lost my trade secrets when a Federal judge turned them over to the defendant so they could go after the $40 million contract at Robins AFB.

7. Lost any income I would have received if the system would have been deployed, but now that I don’t have the trade secrets protected, who can calculate what I lost?

8. Lost my mentor company because they were afraid to associate with me. They said don’t call them, don’t show up at their office and don’t email them. They were afraid of losing their millions in contracts if they associated with me.

9. Lost my contract with a company because I filed a lawsuit against Robins AFB. I was told if I marketed my project on the base, I would lose my income, or if I filed the lawsuit, I would lose my income.

10. Lost the City of Macon city Web site bidding opportunity because I didn’t offer Mayor Ellis a campaign donation of $15,000 and because I’m White. One of the defendants ended up with the contract, and in the meantime, I’ve been working on the city’s Web site since 1999 for free. Perhaps when I can change the color of my skin, and come up with campaign money, I might get paid.

11. Cell phone was shut off.

12. (waiting to see what happens next, but I’m guessing it will be going back to no electricity.)

Hello OPEC, can you mail me a gas card? My Hillbilly Chicken Truck is hungry.

Hello Congress.  Can we work on that contractual vehicle idea?  Obviously, it isn’t working, forcing small businesses to team with the prime contractors at Robins AFB.  Have Ramen Noodles…will travel.  I don’t even need the per diem rate.  I’ll sleep in my Hillbilly Chicken Truck.

See you next month, when I put the gadget up again for an update.  (We’ll do this monthly)

Just recently, I’ve heard things about my journey that made me question God’s will concerning me. Some of the comments are unfair. Some question why I’m in litigation and I’m a Christian.

Why am I in litigation? Am I wrong to be here? Should I have just given up my plans to my competitors and just marked it up as experience? Should I have walked away?

There are Scriptures that support both answers, (to quit or keep going). Since I’m in this, It’s not going to do any good to go back in time and say I should have walked away. I didn’t.

I can’t count the number of times I’ve cried, and cried, and cried. I cried out to God telling Him I had gone as far as I could without a lawyer, and I wanted to quit. I have broke down, emotionally, crying uncontrollably in front of people, over the stress of litigation and not knowing the outcome.

It was Christians who were the most unsupportive of me. The most critical. The most distant. They were the ones who couldn’t understand the journey I was on, and it made them afraid. Still, I kept going.

I honestly thought God was going to send me a lawyer. He didn’t.

So, why did I keep going? Faith. I made a promise to God to not quit. But even after things got tougher than I thought they would, I still wanted to keep my promise. I wanted to see what God would do to bring me through. I wanted to finish the race.

Back in October of 2007, I had written my post titled "I Won’t Be Killed For You." In that post, I talked about the Onion City Lawyer I met with. Though I didn’t get a lawyer out of that meeting, I got a preview of what today would be like for me. During my waiting time to see the lawyer, I picked up a book called "The Bridge That Brought Me Over". At the time, I picked it up because it was a thin book I thought would be easier to read.

It wasn’t until this morning, during a church service I attended, that I would understand the deeper meaning that book would have to me.

For the past six years, I’ve been unable to explain to anyone, including Judge Lumsden, why I didn’t give up even though I lost everything. You see, she told me on May 16, that she has no doubt I’m broke, but she couldn’t understand why I kept going even though I lost everything. Why should I tell her? My journey is beyond words that people can explain. "Well, judge, I want to see what God does." "I made a promise not to quit no matter how bad things get."

Somehow, I don’t think anyone gets it, nor do I care.

I didn’t know how to explain to critical people, who thought that I should not be going through these cases without a lawyer, why I’m not quitting.

I didn’t know how to explain to my hecklers (aka, Liberty Bella and the Mercer Law Library blogger if they are not one in the same) why I walk this path in spite of the public criticism concerning BRAC.

I thought I needed the media to care about the small businesses. I thought I needed politicians to care. I thought I needed the commanders of Robins AFB to care. I thought I needed the contractors at the base to stand with me. I thought I needed people to join me.

That is, until today.

Someone put things in perspective for me this morning, and now I can finally explain why I keep going, and why I don’t care if anyone agrees with me. It’s called risk.

One of the example given was when Indiana Jones needed to cross an area where a bridge was required. Yet, there was no bridge. It wasn’t until he stepped in what looked to be an empty space, that a bridge appeared.

Another example given was when Peter was faced with trusting Jesus in the midst of a storm. He asked Jesus to call him out of the boat. Jesus called him out. Peter didn’t see a bridge from the boat to the Lord. He saw stormy waters. It wasn’t until he got out of the boat and trusted our Savior, that he was able to walk on the water. Did he drown? No, he didn’t.

People talk about Peter sinking, but so what? HE GOT OUT OF THE BOAT!

That got me to thinking about all my critics, and about those on the base who wish something can be done, but that’s all they do. They wish. I STEPPED OUT OF THE BOAT. I took a risk that if I moved forward, God would build my bridge.

I thought He would send me a lawyer, or a powerful law firm. I even thought God was sending me a lawyer that would mentor me.

I got a mentor all right. But would any of you understand it if I told you?

I stepped out in the realm of the unknown and into a world I knew nothing of. The American Judicial System. I start to sink. I don’t know all the rules. I make mistakes.

If people want to remember the mistakes in litigation I make, or the odds I’m up against, so be it for them. I will remember that I got out of the boat, blindly, not seeing a bridge to cross.

The bridge that brought me over is the bridge the Lord is building for me across the stormy sea of litigation. I don’t know what plank gets built in the next step, nor do I know what’s on the other side when the bridge is completely built.

I just know I took the risk that God would either send me a lawyer, or He would mentor me. He chose to be my Mentor.

So, I keep going, trusting that even though I can’t see the next plank in the bridge, it will be built.

And so, I keep going. I want to finish this race and I am confident that the next legal step would be revealed to me when I need to know.

I am not going to turn around and get back in the boat. I like walking on the water and learning things I never knew I was capable of learning.  I’m content to finish the race and if I sink, I sink.  But what I know is that I got out of the boat and trusted that God would build a bridge for me.

Now it’s a matter of waiting until the end of my journey to see what each plank was, and where it leads, and what’s at the other end.

I’ve been working on going through each of the posts and removing the funky characters, adding post categories, updating links and content.

I don’t have any information about the cases at this time.  Other than the affidavit of poverty order from the Superior Court, there has been no activity.  In the meantime, I have a lot of work to do on the new site design.

I’ve blocked Google from indexing my site because I don’t want them indexing the content with the strange characters from the database.

I’m also learning the WordPress Multi-user (WPMU) blog administration features. Can you tell I’m having fun with the plugins? I’ll eventually stop playing around with them, but if you see things show up then disappear, it’s because I’m trying out plugins. Once a geek, always a geek.

I’m also setting up another blog network for my appleton.ws site.  I have to do something for a career and so I’m going to pursue art.  My art site is so outdated and abandoned, which means it’s going to take me a while before I have a site ready.  That’s okay though because it’s going to be a while before I can afford art supplies to do any work.

Back to editing!

Update - not even five minutes after posting this!!

Look who is indexing my site! So much for plugins and robot.txt blocking search engines. They don’t work, unless maybe Google can’t read anything.

72.14.195.223 (Google Inc) [Label IP Address]

California, Mountain View, United States, 0 returning visit

Date Time WebPage
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facingthesharks.com/

If you can’t see the ChipIn widget above, you can load the page here.

A ruling that I’m broke is an understatement.  I was prepared to bring my Coleman lantern to the court as evidence that I can’t afford the fees.  I could have also brought my Hillbilly Chicken Truck’s bills.  The clutch.  The alternator.  The tires.  The towing. 

I wonder if I can still do that and get the 15% waived too?  *grin*

I’ve been waiting for Judge Lumsden’s Order to determined if my affidavit of poverty will be accepted. It was!  And what did the order say?

Plaintiff, Colleen Appleton filed her Notice of Appeal and affidavit of poverty on February 5, 2008. A hearing was held on May 16, 2008 where defendants challenged the plaintiff’s affidavit of poverty and the relative merit of her appeal. After hearing evidence, without regard to or comment on the merits of said appeal, the Court finds the plaintiff presented sufficient evidence to warrant the waiving of the filing fee pursuant to O.C.G.A. Sec. 5-6-4. The costs for the preparation of the record ($1.50 per page) shall be prorated and the plaintiff shall be responsible for 15% of the total fee, the rest being waived by the Court. It should be noted that the plaintiff declined to participate in the takedown or transcription costs at various hearings on this matter; this order does not change the general rules with regard to the availability of transcripts in such circumstances.

This the 8th day of July, 2008

Signed by Judge Katherine K. Lumsden

I asked God for knowledge and wisdom for these cases, and I put this order in His hands a long time ago.  It took a long time for the order to be entered, and God has blessed me.  I don’t know what the 15% will amount to, but I’ve been in these cases for six years now, and God has sustained me.  I don’t think He’s going to bring me this far and not allow me to finish the race.

Now, I have to look up the rules that will allow me to get access to the transcript.

Plan of action?

Step 1: Continue raising money for the transcript fee. I have $361 left to raise, so if you would like to help, I would be a very happy pro se litigant! (I’ll be happy even if you can’t help.) The initial step to tracking the fundraiser project is completed. I found a widget that will help me track the fundraiser.

Step 2: File a motion to request access to that transcript.

Step 3:

Plan A: if the motion is granted, I’ll order the transcript.

Plan B: if the motion is denied, I’ll file an objection to the denial, and an appeal. I will create a paper trail to use in the appellate court if it goes that far.

Step 4: I don’t know what step four is yet. I’ve never gone to an appeals court yet. I suppose step four will be to learn how to file and manage an appeal. That sounds like a plan!

I’ve learned to dig into the rules and not be afraid to question everything done by opposing counsel and the courts. We are playing a gigantic chess game and I intend to play hard.

Well, there you have it!  Now you know I’ve been working on for the past few days.  It’s a new design and new features.

This isn’t just a standard blog.  It’s a community blog.  I can now run multiple blogs from my facingthesharks.com domain.  I set this up to extend this domain to host other pro se litigant blogs.

I also hope that pro se litigant friendly (key word is friendly) lawyers and other interested parties will want a blog.  Hey! It could happen.  There are courts that provide resources for pro se litigants.  There are lawyers too, who write awesome articles that help pro se litigants. 

Want to see what I mean by multiple blogs?  I’ll let you take a look at the newly created blog for the antitrust case in the U.S. District Court.  As of the date of this post, it’s not set up yet.  It has the “hello world” post still there.  That’s how new it is.  Appleton v Intergraph et al Blog.  I’ll be adding all the posts to this blog shortly.  In the meantime, you can watch me develop it if you want to.

I’m going to make one like it for the Superior Court too, and the Court of Appeals, and if I end up in the Supreme Court, that will have its own blog too.

I also want to start a Jurisdictionary club in Macon and this will provide hosting space for our projects.

Quirks…

When I transferred the database over to the server, it added funky looking characters.  I have to go into each post and remove those.

I’ve also changed categories around, so you don’t see many categories right now, but that’s because I’m editing posts.  I’m getting about one category per day completed.

Missing posts…

Yes, they’re missing.  Lots of them.  I’ve removed all the case documents.  This site was getting so big that it was hard to find the actual docket files.  That’s why each case is getting its own blog.   Only case files are going on the blogs, as well as local rules and citations so they can be opened up for discussion. (Not as legal advice so don’t all the lawyers have a cow)

Advertising…

I’m going to do it.  Yes, I am.  But not Google stuff.  I just don’t know yet what I’m going to advertise.

Pro se litigants…

I can provide hosting and a domain for you at no charge.  I can’t provide legal advice, but you are welcome to share your stories here.  It’s a blogging network for common people going through the court system.

I’m going to be adding instant messaging on the site.

Links…

I didn’t forget all you people I’ve linked to on the old blog.  I’ll add the links back, but I’m not ready yet.

Feedback…

Let me know what you think of the site by sending me a comment on the message wall.  If you see any bugs, let me know that too.

From The Series: Feeling the Financial Burden Of The Lawsuit

The Hillbilly Chicken Truck is sitting on I-16 again.  That’s right.  How many times is this now?

After being out of work for three weeks, I got the truck back.  It had an alternator put in it.  Before that, it was the clutch.  I went back to work last Monday and worked three days. 

Wednesday night, very late, Wesley and I drove to Warner Robins to check on my laptop that was hosting my blogs.  The laptop had crashed.  I thought the power for Flint Energies was turned off, and that’s why my blogs went down.  When we got there, the power had not been turned off yet.

The laptop wouldn’t come back up, so I have it now.  We made it back to Macon without any trouble, but after dropping Wesley off, I started home.  It was in the wee hours of the morning, and I didn’t have a cell phone any more.

The tire blew out again!  This is the second time this happened to me on the same expressway.   I didn’t want to stay out there at that hour, and it was hot.  I drove it at snails pace trying to get home.  That lasted about a mile or two and the truck locked up and shut itself off.

I tried going again.  Nothing.  It locked up again and shut itself off.

I sat there.  I wasn’t about to start walking at that hour with two laptops, a camera (a blogger without a camera?) and my purse.

Shortly thereafter, a semi-truck pulled up behind me.  That made me nervous.  I had prayed and asked God for help, but you know what?  Fear took over.  What woman wants a truck driver stopping behind her at 1:30 AM without a cell phone?

The driver came up to my window and asked if I needed help.  I asked if he had a phone I could call 911 with.  He did.  Though, he didn’t think that was a good idea to call 911.  He wanted me to call someone else.  Um…no!  There’s no one to call for me.

He let me use the phone and the dispatcher sent a deputy out.  The deputy wanted me to move the truck further off the road, but it wouldn’t budge.  So, he suggested driving it backwards.  That worked.  It wouldn’t go forward because of how the tire was busted up, but it went backwards.

So, there the truck sits.  I can’t afford a tire.  If it gets towed again, I’ll have to give up the truck.

I worked three days and that’s it.  It’s back to being without work.  I can’t for the life of me figure out how I don’t meet the requirements of poverty in the courts.

Yet, someone donated money to pay my rent.  I’ll say it again. God sustains me.  It may not be in the way people think it should be, but I am content to know He will get me through all of this.

From The Series: Feeling the Financial Burden Of The Lawsuit

It’s been something like 55 days since the poverty hearing in the Superior Court.  Do you remember what happened?  Intergraph, through their lawyer, said they wanted me to feel the financial burden of the lawsuit.

Ever since that hearing I’ve been trying to figure out what that means.  You know…like…when do I know if I’ve met the goal?

Let’s ask my cell phone.  Last time I posted, we asked my truck.  Now, we’ll ask my cell phone because it was disconnected.  That’s what happens when you’re feeling the financial burden of standing up to corruption at Robins Air Force Base.

I was offered a $50,000 bribe to drop my GAO protest against the LEAN-TI contract award.  I wonder how many months of cell phone service that could have bought me. 

Next week, we’ll ask my landlord, because rent is due and I don’t have it to pay.  Tomorrow, we’ll ask Flint Energies, because I can’t afford to pay the electric bill in my old office, which is now a storage room for someone else, but in exchange for allowing my laptop to stay in the office, I’ve been paying the electric bill, which is only $24 / month, but the rates have risen.  I have a disconnect notice for today so I’m trying to figure out where to host my blogs since my friend is out of town for a week and can’t move my laptop yet.

Well, I’m sure some will be happy that my sites might disappear for a week, but I’ll be back.

Oh yes, I contacted FOX news last night.  Let’s see who’s who in BRAC and how fast the "powers that be" contact them and tell them they better not run my story.

I’m going to email all the news channels (including 13WMAZ) the latest news in the case in the District Court, concerning my trade secrets being handed over to the defendant, Intergraph, so they could benefit financially from my discovery I had to turn over to them.

I know you don’t all know about that yet, but some of you do because you were blogging with me at our favorite coffee house when a stranger (to me) walked in and sat down at my table.  When I found out who he was, I asked him to leave my table.  That’s when I found out that it’s no surprise my trade secrets were given to the defendants.

I’m waiting for the court to respond to the document I submitted concerning that event in the coffee house, but so far, all is quiet.  I don’t know if it even requires a response from the court or the defendants, but I’m going to pursue it further.  Such as, finding out what I’m allowed to get as far as records of previous cases handled by a judge.  Things like disciplinary actions, complaints, etc. 

I don’t know who governs judges.  I guess that’s a new thing in litigation I have to learn.  Why not?  I’m having to learn the other things I never thought I could comprehend.  I may as well learn next what the rules are for judges and how to file complaints against them too.  Is there a statute of limitations?

Politics.  Ya gotta love it. 

So, am I meeting the goal of feeling the financial burden of the lawsuit yet?  I don’t know.  I still have a roof over my head and am not homeless, so maybe I must not have met the goal yet.

I’ll try harder.  I think losing my land, home, business, contracts, trade secrets and everything else, just wasn’t enough.

You know what’s pathetic?  Someone actually told me I should have just taken the bribes.  There was going to be a "handsome reward" in one of the bribes.  Another one would have been where I could name my price to make the lawsuit go away, and if I didn’t, my contract would be given away to the company who represented the government.  I wonder how many would have moved forward to try to fight the corruption instead of bowing down to the intimidation, and eventually giving in.  Money is not the motivating factor for everyone.  There are still people who will fight for integrity.

I guess I don’t understand these bribes and how they’re supposed to work.  Because, you see…

I ANSWER TO GOD AND I CAN’T FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIGURE OUT WHY PEOPLE CAN’T JUST LEAVE THEIR CORRUPT WAYS BEHIND AND HAVE INTEGRITY IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, when people think I should have "taken one for the team" or "accepted the bribes" or whatever….I think about the same from my point of view.  Why can’t someone just say no to bribes?  Why can’t someone just stand up to corruption?  Why can’t someone fight back instead of being bullied?  Why did someone access my blog from the Mercer Law Library to tell me corruption is okay?  That’s scary and pathetic that yet another person is going to enter our judicial system thinking corruption is okay.

Until these issues resolve between me and Robins Air Force Base, I’m going to fight.

Fear is going to be there.  Overcoming it and walking forward in integrity is a better goal than "taking one for the team."  Yes, I care about BRAC.  And you should too.  You should be hoping that a deciding factor in keeping Robins AFB open will not be integrity.  If it is, they failed.

Corruption is not okay and I’m going to keep fighting and speaking out against Robins Air Force Base and what they’re doing to the small businesses.  I can’t imagine retreating.

Stay tuned tomorrow.  We’ll ask Flint Energies if I’ve met the goal of feeling the financial burden yet.

From The Series: Feeling the Financial Burden Of The Lawsuit

I was busy all weekend with celebrations, so I didn’t post any journal entries here over the weekend.  You can see my Friday Sky Watch post here.  And what else?  Well, how about this….

IF I WASN’T FEELING THE FINANCIAL BURDEN OF THE LAWSUIT YET IT’S DOING A GREAT JOB DISGUISING ITSELF!!!!!!!!!

Ask my truck.  I’m sure if it could be a character witness, it would tell you it shook in its wheels and was afraid it was going back to truck jail.  I’m sure it wishes I was rich and would just get it fixed.

I think now it’s going to tremble every time it sees a cop car or a tow truck. See “The Hillbilly Chicken Truck Rides Again - Then Gets Pulled Over“

Well, I’m clueless if I’m feeling the burden yet, but if someone has been there before, let me know what it’s like, will ya?

From The Series: Feeling the Financial Burden Of The Lawsuit

Wednesday, 17:29

I didn’t feel much like writing yesterday so I didn’t do a daily update. 

I’m anxious today about my circumstances and I have cabin fever. Bad.  Really bad.  I need my truck back, but I finally heard about it.  There were delays in getting it fixed, which I understand.

The verdict is in.  It needs a new alternator.  Well, that’s not counting the dimmer switch it also needs, but one thing at a time.  This repair job will cost about $130.  That takes up the majority of my one remaining pay check.  Nothing I can do.  I have to get back to work, and I learned today that I still have a job to get back to.

I’m about to be evicted and I’m in the process of packing.  I’m going to let my cell phone get turned off this month.  The electric disconnection comes shortly.  My truck takes priority.

Whoever thinks I’m not feeling the financial burden of the lawsuits really needs to rethink their strategy. 

I’ll bet you’re wondering where the death by chocolate title comes in right?  Yeah, I figured.  So I’ll tell you.

I think too much.  I think about the cases.  I think about RAFB.  I think about my friend, Brad, who may have to shut down his company because of all the crap he’s enduring with government contracting.  I think about my truck.  I think about why is it taking the Superior Court so long to rule on their decision about my affidavit of poverty.  The hearing was May 16 and the judge said about a week for the decision.  Nothing yet.  I don’t know if that’s good or bad.

Maybe they are busy.

Anyway, I think too much.  Because I was thinking too much, instead of praying and trusting God, I started thinking about the baking cocoa on my shelf.  Yeah, chocolate always works when you think too much.

Chocolate no-bake cookies was sounding pretty good for lunch.  Nothing else.  Just the cookies.  Except, I didn’t have all the ingredients.  No butter.  What do I care?  At least it’s chocolate.   I reduced the recipe so there would be less of a guilt later.

Instead of 2 cups of sugar, I used 1/2 cup and reduced the rest of the ingredients.  Did you know you can make no-bake cookies without butter?  It doesn’t taste as good, but it works when you think too much.

Well, there you have it.  Death by chocolate.  Okay, so that’s only half the story.  Want the other half?  I thought so.

I ATE THE WHOLE BATCH!!!!!  IN.  ONE.  SITTING.

Okay, you know why the title says death by chocolate.  Take a tip from me okay?  Prayer is much better when you think too much.   I don’t feel so good now.

I need to stop thinking.

Why are the courts so quiet? (oops, sorry.  I’m not supposed to think.)